I am typing this as I look out of my hotel room window. The electricity went out in my apartment building, the funny thing about that is that it is out in my building only and not the whole complex. Anyway, I decided to update you today.
I am nearing the end of the first phase of the process of my doctoral pursuit and I must say that this last stretch has been extremely challenging. I started a new and exciting position. It is wonderful, and challenging, and exciting all at the same time. I have stepped into new territory and am totally out of my comfort zone. I have been introduced to business travel, expense reports and mileage reports along with having to get used to having an administrative assistant to do them for me (everyone should have a Kelly). I can truly say that I love my job and all of the exposure that it brings me. This year (the 15 months of this grant) will definitely be shaping me and getting me ready for the next phase in my life.
I am also taking my last two doc courses this semester (a feat in itself). I go from work (leaving home at 6:30 am) to school every week day (getting home around 9:00 pm) except Friday (on the past two Fridays I attended a study group with my project partners so it may as well have been Monday-Friday). I can say that I have found my groove and have been able to balance everything and have turned in all assignments (except one) on time. I had to miss class one week to travel for work so, last week my life kind of did an overlap. It has been tough overall, but I see the light.
I have entered my 49th year of life and I see it — in the hot flashes and the 10 pounds I have gained — and the fuzzy memory. I know that these side effects are a combination of me being more sedentary in my new job, slower metabolism, and eating more combined with just being exhausted. I am monitoring and adjusting to prepare for my next phase mentally, physically, and spiritually.
I called this blog Cultivating Pearls because of what I know about the process of making Pearls. According to https://willhaniganpearls.com/blogs/news/pearl-cultivation Natural Pearls form when an irritant works its way into an oyster, mussel, or clam until a lustrous pearl is formed. I believe that everything, and I do mean everything that has happened and is going to happen (the irritants and growing pains) in the next year to 18 months is a will be making me the leader that I am called to be.
I am still toying with what will be the future topic of this blog and when I will transition to that new topic. Your feedback will be greatly appreciated.
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It's time for an update. I have been in my new role for about a month now. I am learning a lot. It is encouraging and empowering to be around people who are considered to experts in their field. I have already been on my first business trip and my next trip is schedule for the end of next month. In my role as literacy coach I will be able to share my expertise in all things literacy with educators from two of our local school districts. This is ideal, because it brings practice and study to life for me. It helps me further connect what I am learning and studying with what I do daily. I get to live in my passion for teacher education with a much broader audience. Everything I have been doing and learning in the last 3 years has prepared me for this opportunity.
I have already told you that my last two courses are in June. I am trying to mentally prepare for balancing that, my new role, and business travel. This is a very welcomed challenge. I am looking forward to working though all of that plus June is my birthday month, so I am also looking forward to seeing what year 49 has in store for me. I believe big things are going to be happening. July will be equally as challenging because I will prepare for my comprehensive exams and will be looking at that very rough first draft of chapters 1, 2, &, 3 of my dissertations. (I misspelled dissertation the first time, should I be worried? Lol)
When I began working on my doctorate, I made the choice to join organizations that would put me around people who love, live, and study literacy. I joined and began doing presentations and volunteering to peer review papers for publication in their journal and even joined one of their committees. I have attempted to have a paper published in their journal as well (My first rejection). Last year, I ran for one of the organization’s At-Large Board of Director positions at the prompting of one of the board members, but did not win. That same board member encouraged me to try again this year. I am excited to share with you that I won this time. For the next two years I will serve as one of the At-Large Directors on the Board of TALE (Texas Association for Literacy Education) in this role I plan to advocate for my passion for teachers and teacher education.
I have been thinking about what the next stage in my life will look like. I know what I originally set out to do with this degree, but God has moved mightily in my life since I began this pursuit. The possibilities are endless and much further reaching than I could even imaging. God has shown me that my thinking was too small. He has more in store for me. I have been strategically doing things that lead to the goals I have set for myself and as a result, big things truly are happening.
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Woooooooooow! 2019 has been a year. I have so much to tell you. Things are really falling into place. I have TWO MORE classes, that’s right; just two more. Both will be in the summer I session—so June will be tough— but nothing I cannot handle. I am soooo encouraged right now. The things I am learning are connecting and so practical. God is so good. I still have lots of work left to do, but I can see the light! I have completed a VERY rough draft of chapters 1,2, & 3 of my dissertation. I will revisit them often between now and August to see how I can make them publish worthy. I may even solicit reviewers to read them for specific and candid feedback. I will dedicate July to organize and study all coursework to prepare for comprehensive exams in the fall semester. After comprehensive exams I will be an Ed.D candidate and officially in the writing phase. My goal is to complete the writing phase in 12 to 18 months. The next steps will be to plan graduation activities.
Guess what? Who am I kidding? I couldn’t keep this a secret if I tried. After 20 years of teaching in Dallas ISD, I am leaving. Starting tomorrow— May 1, 2019— I will be an employee of Region 10 Educational Service Center. This is a move I am very excited about. It is the beginning of my next steps. I love professionally developing and teaching educators and now I can do it for a broader audience (and in conjunction with TEA- Texas Education Agency). In my new role I will be responsible for a caseload of 60 educators and administrators. I will be conducting professional development with them and providing targeted support that is directly aligned with that professional development. This new role gives me the opportunity to live what I have been studying while studying what I am living. Instead of only working with one ISD (Independent School District) I will be working with school districts in the region. I can see how various school districts conduct the business of educating children. I will have access to more teachers in those districts which in turn gives me the opportunity to reach more students and positively impact student academic achievement.
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As an instructional specialist, I work with teachers daily. I synthesize what I am learning in coursework to use in daily practice, I continually think of my research topic and how I can make my work and course work meld together. I want to tell the story of educators while being educated myself. I choose to research teacher practices when they are teaching vocabulary because of the demographic of students I work with. I am interested in vocabulary instruction because as a classroom teacher even my best students struggled with vocabulary. I honestly believe that what I see the "highly-effective" educators do quite effortlessly when they teach vocabulary can help every teacher. As a result, I am always watching what the highly effective teacher does.
So, I become teacher-researcher-coach as I work with my teachers. I am observed a few “highly Effective educators. I have trained my teachers on research-based best practices in vocabulary instruction and given them a few suggestions on how to incorporate vocabulary instruction in their school day. I presented them with this question: What would happen if you were intentional with your vocabulary instruction? Since that training, they have answered that question with things like:
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I have not spoken to you this year. Happy New Year to you, lol I have had a lot going on this year and since the last time I updated you. This has been the longest break I have taken since I began this blog in June of 2016. I feel bad about it, but life kinda "got in the way" of my timeline for a bit. Classes got more rigorous as I am getting near the end of my course work. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s a long, long, long tunnel, but I see it. I am in two course this semester and have two more to complete which puts me on target to finish summer II which is July. By the end of my coursework, I will have a working draft of chapters 1, 2, & 3 of my dissertation. Then on to comprehensive exams and defending those chapters. Once the "powers that be" (my graduate advisor and a team of professionals from the graduate school) say yes, it's on to my actual research. I then write chapters 4 and 5 and move to where I defend everything (final defense). and finally to the goal, the title Dr. (Ed.D). I am excited and overwhelmed all at the same time- if that is even possible. My goal (which is just that) is completion December 2020.
I have grown and am growing, living, and making connections that will help me with future success. I still feel the inner nudging of the need to make a move and spread my wings career-wise, but have not found that open door, yet. Still I trudge on. I am open and ready once the door is open and am also seeking opportunities for the growth of my leadership skills. I am setting myself up to be the literacy leader I am supposed to be. My words for the next 5 years are "Clear Vision".
Stay tuned for an announcement in the near future.
I am in love with being an adjunct professor. It is fulfilling and rewarding but is also extra which takes a bit more of my time than just being an instructional specialists and doc student. It is not something I am willing to give up. It is pivotal to my future success. I tell people when they ask me: "If I could quit my job and do this full time, I would." As long as I am afforded the opportunity to do this work, I will. I look forward to future opportunities to come from working with pre-service teachers.
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I had the opportunity to be an adjunct professor at Paul Quinn College this fall. It was a big deal to me because teaching has always been something I just knew I would do and now I have the opportunity to do at the college level. What also makes this a big deal is that Paul Quinn College is also where I began my college life. This is me waiting for my panel interview. I was both excited and proud because it felt like I was coming home. For you to truly understand what I mean, you have to know that I did not graduate—at least not from Paul Quinn— but it was where I began to grow. It was where learned some life lessons, gained some life long friends and it was where I lost my voice. Working at Paul Quinn College is like finding my voice again and using that voice to teach young people who are a lot like I was.
As I walked the campus during my first weeks of class I looked at the buildings I attended class in, the grounds I used to run on, and memories came flooding back to me. I remember standing outside this set of doors talking to the guy that I was dating. This is the place where students used to hangout and socialize. He and I were discussing something now I cannot remember what, but I did not agree with him. Before I knew it, he had reached out to hit me and I tried to get away and go inside. I do remember thinking none of these people know how scared I am right now. No one knows that I need help. That was the moment I lost my voice. Now this area is used as a clothing closet to help students get ready for job interviews. Students at Paul Quinn College also have to dress professionally during the school day. This clothing closet helps those students who need more professional clothing as well. I volunteer here for a couple of hours a month so students can get help with professional clothes.
Paul Quinn College is an HBCU (Historically Black College and University) founded in 1872 by African Methodist Episcopal preachers in Austin, Texas for freed slaves and their children. Paul Quinn moved from there to Waco and finally to Dallas. You will see the schools institutional ethos "We over Me" in several areas on the campus as a reminder that we are stronger together no matter what our race, culture, socioeconomic status, or any other quality that makes us unique. Paul Quinn College has always been a small family like institution with a student population anywhere from 300 to 500 hundred students. This small family-like setting was ideal for me when I was a student.
The student ratio at Paul Quinn is about 9:1. Both my classes had less than 5 students in them, but because they are classes students need for certification they were allowed to “make”. These two students are in my Emergent Literacy class. One is a junior and the other is a sophomore. It was hard to conduct some of the engaging types of activities that you can do with a big group but it was easy for them to relax and ask the types of questions they needed to ask. Our sessions were intimate and productive.
There were 4 students in my second class., Reading in the Elementary School. This group was made up of juniors and seniors who are trying to get they course work together so they can being their student teaching. What is interesting about this group is that one of these students is an online only student from our newly established Plano campus which is comprised of students who are doing student internships in some businesses in Plano, Texas. They are taking their courses online. I use a screen sharing software and webcam to record and present the lessons for her and the other students in class. This was the first year that students were able to be in class this way. This group is more vocal and interacted well together.
As I began to prepare to teach my students, I kept in mind, my experience as a college student at Paul Quinn. I understand that just like I had issues and challenges they may also have challenges and issues. I understand that they are trying to find their way in life- just like I was. I have found my way home and so will they. I am here to help them find their way. As I prepared to teach them, I had in mind that more than likely my students would be placed in schools that are in low socioeconomic areas with students who have various needs and deficits like is typical of children who come from poorer areas of the city. I kept in mind the area that Paul Quinn is in. I planned my lectures with all of this in mind. I tried to plan ways for the students to learn what their students should come to them knowing, how to assess to learn what academic level their students are learning on, and gave them practical tips to teach them how to move their students to the next level. We even discussed ways to get parent involvement. I taught each lecture modeling how they would interact with their students, showing them different ways of engaging them, and also telling they how the student brain works so they can consider that when planning their own lessons for their students. This experience has been very rich and fulfilling for me. I know this is what I was meant to do. I look forward to many more opportunities to pour into these young future educators.
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Okay, it's September (I know, I know) I missed updating you in August. Life got busy and as I often tell you, I struggle with balance (got off track again). I'm taking two of the five courses that I have left in this pursuit and in addition to that I am now an adjunct professor of teacher education at Paul Quinn College, by the way I LOVE it, but with this addition, I have more late nights even still, I continue to press on. Along with my course work, specialist work, and adjunct work, I am also an appointed member of my school districts Racial Equity Advisory Council for the area that I live in. This gives me the opportunity to be the voice for the children in my neighborhood as well as the teachers who work in my neighborhood. I want to use this platform to speak about how to improve the level of instruction that babies in my area are getting. This leads me to what I really want to talk about tonight, teacher efficacy.
Teacher efficacy is the educator’s belief that they can guide their students to success no matter what challenges they come to school with. Teachers who come to work believing that they can positively affect student academic success do what is necessary to achieve that. Collective teacher efficacy is the belief that as a school community, working together all teachers can positively affect student success. This is what creates effective, high performing schools. This can sometimes be the novice educator (I’ve seen and worked with some) quite often though, it’s the veteran educator. The educator who has experienced teaching children from differing backgrounds and challenges. The teacher that is continually working on his or her craft. Here is the real provocation, quite often those teachers don’t work in the areas that need them most – areas with high crime and low socioeconomic status. In my work, I have seen the effects of teachers with poor efficacy. I have seen too often brand-new teachers, and/or poorly trained teachers working with our students who come from low socioeconomic areas. The problem with this is that they are quite often not properly trained to deal with the various needs that these babies come to school with and as a result, performance in those schools is low over all. It is on my mind because I have got to find a way to change this pattern. ACE (accelerating campus excellence) helps, but what happens when those schools still cannot fully staff with good veteran educators, what can we do when the money runs out? What can we do with and for educators and schools in these areas to get and retain veteran educators? Better still, how can we train the educators we have that are willing to work in these areas? These are questions that I am seeking the answers too, because the goal should be and still is, student academic success and we need it to be done equitable.
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When I last updated you I mentioned my progress thus far and that I was taking my first statistics class. Well, I passed my stats course (I got an A), I also stated that I was at a break in course work because of not having a course to take for summer II. I am nearing the end of my course work (last class Summer I 2019) It is still my goal to have my lit review published before I complete my course work. The biggest issue I am having is finding time to make the edits and work on adding more depth to the review. I know and understand the importance of the lit review for me to further developing my questions and research topic. I want to devote the end of July and the beginning of August to completing the necessary edits and attempting to submit the lit review to be published in a peer reviewed journal.
I had big ideas for what would happen to me professionally in July. I wanted to tell you that I had gotten a new position in my department and that I was going to learn and grow in my new role. I also wanted to tell you that I had finally gotten my lit review published. Well, my July has not really gone the way I had planned. I didn't get the promotion. I still didn't get the lit review published, and I am not sure what my next professional career move will be. I am still looking for an opportunity to use the skills that I have gained, but it seems that most of my opportunity has come outside of my current position. That may be a hint—I am exploring all options— my opportunity may just come from outside sources. The connections I have made through this doc program and by attending conferences and other workshops has helped me learn to promote my strengths and work on my weaknesses. These connections have also taught me how important people and connections can be.
Big things have been happening in other aspects of my professional career. I have been invited to speak to new teachers during A&M-Commerce's Professional Development day. It was an opportunity that I truly enjoyed. I was also invited to be a guest peer reviewer for an early childhood publication. I have enjoyed that as well. I have just begun working with TALE's (Texas Association for Literacy Educators) educator empowerment committee. This group of literacy professionals has me excited to learn and grow while I work with them. I am also on Dallas ISD's Racial Equity Advisory Council for the area I live in. Although my lit review was not published, I have a short story that will be published in TALE's next newsletter. As I reflect on the end of my 19th year in education. I see my growth as an educator and a literacy leader. I also see areas where I need additional growth and strengthening. I will continue to seek opportunities to grow in those weak areas and improve on my strengths as well.
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Here is another progress update. I missed my May update. I got busy with life/work balance again. A lot has happened since April. As I sit here and reflect, I am truly proud of myself—professionally and personally—as I continue learning, living and leading. I just had a birthday (insert birthday dance). I am a 48 year old woman and I feel like I am truly beginning to live (I think I say that every year). I have just completed my 20th year as an educator. I am an educational specialist with a wealth of knowledge to share. I am looking forward to the next 20 years of having an impact on student academic success via working to build teacher self efficacy in every educator I come in contact with.
I have knocked down two more courses which brings me closer to end of coursework. . I hit a bump in the road, when I miss calculated how many classes I had left to take, but I had to remember that I am not trying to rush the process, I am having to pay close attention to the courses I register for, because I am close to the end and other doc students have had issues with taking courses not needed and/or taking courses again without knowing. This summer I will get a break (July) because the amount of courses I need is shrinking and there is no available course for me to take in the summer II session. I was temped to take two tough courses this term because this would have allowed me to finish a semester sooner. I was advise against it for my sanity's sake and I am glad I listened. I am trying to keep moving at a steady pace to maximize my learning along the way. It is working and I am able to apply what I am learning in practical ways in all aspects of life. I continue to try to get my writing published and keep getting feedback that tells me to "revise and resubmit". I do expect that, and I know feedback like that will help me focus my writing and help the dissertation process become much smoother when the time comes.
On to statics, I am in the place in my pursuit where I am working through courses that will help me build the skill set necessary to be called Educationis Doctor (EdD). Statistics is one of the first of those courses. I had/have anxiety about this course because I fear working with numbers and I fear not being successful in my pursuit. Week one is over and my anxiety has subsided (just a little). Like my sister told me: "The last quarter is always the gut climb". I am understanding that this course is set up to prepare me to use, understand, and interpret the data that I gather when I conduct my own research. I am excited to be this close to the finish of my pursuit. I will be fortunate enough to have a break in course work to rest, refresh, and work on making sense of all the courses I have taken thus far.
I have big things coming this year. Stay tuned to see what happens next. Thank you for reading..
I am tired!!! It is hard, at times to even want to continue. (I am not stopping though; I will finish) The quality of my work is suffering and so is my focus I know that means it's time for a break. All I can think of is finishing and what I need to do to get done. That is my motivation for now. In my talking to people who have made this pursuit, I understand that these feelings are normal. I also know that since I am not giving up, I must find a way to push through.
So, here is my update for this month. I continue to find ways to discuss, share, and refined my research topic. I participated in the A & M-Commerce Research Symposium. I used information that I have so far on my topic. I know I was not nearly ready, but I know that I need as much experience as I possibly can get in sharing my topic so that I can defend it when the time comes. I will say that I did not do well, but I did not expect to. I did have the opportunity to share my thoughts and get some good feedback from a couple of professors on what some good possible next steps will be for me. So, in that aspect; the experience was beneficial.
I'm a guest blogger:
As a result of this blog, I was given the opportunity to be a guest blogger for McGraw-Hill Education's Art of Teaching Blog. My piece was titled "The Heart of the Read-Aloud". https://medium.com/inspired-ideas-prek-12/the-art-of-the-read-aloud-5847af75c792 Check it out here. My piece was published this month and I am very proud of that. I will be writing something for them again, very soon.
Big News Alert!!!
I have an upcoming opportunity to do some work related to my future goals. This work has required me to update and revise my resume and my vita. In doing so, I realized that I am missing some very important experiences that are necessary to "pad my resume" if you will. I am venturing out and making new connections—this is hard for me— I am an introvert. I have some new and big things coming in the next few months that will help me to establish myself as a thought leader in the field of literacy.
I can see the future and it is looking bright. I believe that I will not fail if I can just keep moving. So, here's to forward motion...
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Pearl Garden is a doctoral candidate at Texas A&M- Commerce. Follow along as she drops "pearls' of literacy and chronicles her pursuit of her Ed. D in Supervision-Curriculum and Instruction- Elementary Education. Just know that these are the ramblings of a doc student and a lot of what you read is a first draft and will go through some rewrites.